I guess doordash is now allowing you to tip after the fact I've been receiving $4 offers all day I guess this is truly the end of doordash. I even had a lady who promised to tipped me after bringing her food upstairs I had to call her out on text before she sent it to me try to use the excuse that she has a lot going on like dude this is my job I don't have too much going on that I'm not going to forget to tell you that you didn't pay me after specifically asking me to bring it upstairs and you tip me.

You couldn't run a delivery service, even by yourself, with only two customers.
If you had 100 customers it would take several drivers to serve them all.
How do you match the number of customers and drivers?
ANSWER: There is no single formula because there are so many variables between passengers, hot food, and groceries. The first thing would be to evaluate your area, your little market. How many people would order your services? Running 24 hrs might not be feasible at first. So how many people would be ordering at the same time for dinnelunch, or needing rides for business and bar rush?
The formula would roughly go along the following: how many people are ordering at the same time vs how many drivers you have to fill those needs.
I ran a taxi company. Let me tell you, it's a fine line. Too many drivers and people don't make money. Too few drivers and customers go to your competitor.
It sounds overwhelming, but once you get your fingers into it..... feel the power of being able to organize something the runs like a well-oiled machine.... and help people reach their goals (either profit or service).... well it's exhilarating.
Customers are out there. If we give them a good option (clean, friendly, diligent drivers) the public has shown that they're willing to purchase these services. There are enough pieces of the pie for us all to have some.
Back to the question at hand.... I'd say you'd need a minimum of 1 driver for each 25 customers or so. They're not going to all order at the same time or every day. So if your co-op has 25 members you'd be comfortable with 2 drivers. Even if 10 customers ordered dinner between 5pm-7pm, you could definitely schedule that so that everyone gets good service.
If you had 100 customers you'd want at least 5 drivers on during peak times. By doing passengers and food, you could be more efficient with getting customers turned over quickly.
The real goal is to have 500-1000 customers. You'd have 30 drivers between pax and food, in addition to your fleet of regular shoppers. With that range of customers your co-op could be servicing 200-400 orders per day. At $1 per order to the co-op, they'd bring in (taking a lot of liberties with averaging) $300 per day or $9k per month. That would pay for a dedicated support person (besides the founders) as well as enough overhead for a real office.

Pretext - out of boredom, gonna write a summary of the ongoings of a certain hotel at Jax Beach. I get to vent, you get hot tea not seen on tv or streaming.
The Story So Far - New hotel is opening soon. They fired their old staff during covid and need new workers. They host an internal job fair(they are the only company there hiring) at a sister location.
I go to the fair on Saturday, I want to be a laundry-person so that I can work without having to put on a fake smile in front of people everyday. I also interview for front desk. I am turned down for not having front desk experience. I get turned down for laundry and instead get pushed to being a lobby person because of my "personality". It gets described as almost like a restaurant hostess position with tip potential, the base pay is higher than my past job so eh. I get hired. After a delay in paperwork, we show up two weeks later for orientation. Nothing out of the ordinary except we are told that we have to put the hotel together ourselves once we get the permits to be on location. We train at two hotels. Nothing remarkable except workers were drinking guest coffee and apparently the housekeepers were running the clock. Our breakfast manager gets into an argument with some of us during the computer training section because we need to be quiet and do our work. First crack in the social fabric.
We finally get the permits to be on the premises. Less than a week of being on site, a house keeper and the breakfast manager start arguing. Not long after that, the same housekeeper got fired for cussing out our HR lady while arguing with the head chef in the elevator going home.
During a planned power outage caught two workers giving head in one of the rooms while I was putting hangers in each room. My partner for the same task would never return to work after lunch.
We were promised an extended weekend near the hotel opening. The day before said weekend, corporate came by and canceled that weekend. Everyone was pissed and I was the only one of few people to show up on Sunday. Around this time, my manager decided to fill our staffing gaps with a staffing company. Two of these workers were caught spying on everyone else to take pictures on everyone and go to my manager with the pics. My manager also cussed out the staffing company because how dare people want to be off on Sunday or have a life outside the hotel. Go cuss out corporate for being a bunch of tone deaf idiots.
My manager sent me and 3 others to go clean the employee break area. We did not need that many people. I could have done it alone myself. I have to once the hotel opens anyway. I decided to just delegate different cleaning tasks and then finish up once they are done. Breakfast manager comes in and just starts sweeping for no reason. My boss comes in and chews me out in front of other people. I do later get an private apology in our gym, but I felt I was set up.
We are allowed to visit bars but not drink alcohol and must be at tables, not the bar section itself. Breakfast manager was going to Lynch's for lunch and having a beer, and then showing the pics of said beers to my co-workers. The managers in general got caught with some apple based alcohol in their office as well.
So once the hotel opens, our positions become malleable. I was told I would be either Lobby or Houseman. I have to now do the duties of both + room service. And no, people don't tip for room service, at least I am paid decent enough, then again I don't pay rent so maybe I am speaking from a privileged position.
Let's talk about the two spies - They are the other lobby-person and our main houseman. Everyone hates cleaning windows. The other lobby-person is supposed to handle such a job but neglects them. After back and forth with my manager, I handle windows now. Our houseman is supposed to handle the upper floors + take out the trash. He is seen constantly on the second floor laughing it up with laundry and doing lobby person stuff. I asked for a assistant and was denied, but the other lobby-person gets one. He was slacking off so hard that he neglected to clean the guest laundry for three days, and as such we got complaints daily about it being dirty. I now handle the guest laundry. I caught him following me and taking pics. And some other workers came up to me and said they heard him in conversation with my manager over these pics. Apparently the pair wouldn't work until our manager came to work, and would sit for hours in the break room, yet complained about our graveyard shift worker doing the same. They started disappearing in the morning before the manager came in. No one knew where they went. We found out at last what they were up to. They got caught in one of these house keeping closest having sex. This same person is about to get promoted. Suck your way to the top top top.
We were having issues with keeping housekeeping closets stocked because our houseman was busy having a party in laundry. I started stocking them myself during my shift. Due to the benefits of such, people during my shift(not me anymore) have to stock the closets now. We had a similar issue with laundry as there is only some much we can wash and dry in one 8 hour shift. I suggested we open up a night shift for laundry. In the meantime I would wash and dry as I could. We eventually got a night-shift. Laundry flows so much better now.
They choose a terrible color for our lobby floor. White and it's various shades including cream are hard to keep clean. Especially with the foot traffic from people coming to and from the bar. After an complaint from bar staff about the spots our temp cleaning machine missed. I got the idea to just take some industrial de-greaser and scrub the floors myself. It took three days. It so also happens that our president was coming for a visit, so my little idea of scrubbing the floors also saved everyone's tooshies. Did I get a thanks? No. "When are you gonna clean up your mess" was the response while I waited on the floors to dry. I have to put down wet floor signs so that we don't get sued to oblivion is someone slips. Sorry that wet floor signs aren't aesthetic. Dirty floors aren't either you know.
I got written up twice. Once for leaving early and not telling graveyard shift such. I was told by my manager that if I arrive late to shift my leaving time so I am still giving the company 8 hours of work. The same for the vice versa. It was also around the time when I realized that I was now also doing houseman duties despite what I was told and promised. So written up for following manager instructions and low key insubordination because excuse me for trying to do the job I was contracted for. I arrive early to work and leave exactly at the appointed time. You just written up into more money. Thanks.
The second time was really really my fault. Anyone who knows me, knows that I have been doing social media on my current accounts for like 6-7 years. Work + keeping up with it was getting a little overwhelming last month and I worked myself into going to work, doing social media stuff up to two hours before before my next shift with no sleep, and went to work. I was exhausted and should have sent myself to the break room. I was instead chilling with front desk between tasks and that got caught on camera. My manager also was trying to accuse me of not cleaning the bathrooms properly, but after seeing my process realized that it wasn't me. And I didn't get any verbal warnings that I was picking up bad behaviors. Straight to write up. She gives me this look after that incident, but that might do to now wearing sunglasses and a mask to work. I clean bathrooms for a living now. Excuse me if I don't want to be breathing in poop and pee particles + these heavy cleaning materials. My mother is sick with cancer, I don't need to be bringing anything home. Period. Also the lighting is too bright, thus shades.
Oh, yes the Lobby-person position. It's just another term for janitor. I asked to be transferred to the kitchen after my manager got caught making fun of me to other managers and suggesting ways to fire me, but she blocked the transfer. I went in an asked for a raise, radio silence.
Starting today or Monday is associate/employee appreciation week. It is also time for our 90 day assessments. I fully expect to be fired this week, so maybe these posts will last for only one more post.
See you next Sunday.

I was talking to a Japanese person who visited a lot of shrines often.
They told me that when they are near a shrine that hasn't been taken well care of lately, they feel a bit scared about it due to KamiSama will not be so happy about that.
I was wondering, does the government take care of shrines, or is it just normal people who live nearby, or is it the clergy?

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Hello!
I’m planning to join a casual running club for all levels so I can got some endorphins back in my life. (it’s been a rough past few months for my body)
They start in Kapitolyo at 6:30 AM every Sunday. I’m planning to start on June 18th ☀️
I tried to invite friends over but, alam mo yun—“It’s 6 AM”, “ugh running”, etc 😅 If you’re happy to go even under these conditions, that would be great! Would love for a person or three that I know so we can be awkward and new at this together hahaha and even maybe start something consistent?
The club says they’re open to all levels, I can send you the link if you’re interested, just message me :)
About me: - Midsized girlie who is not athletic by any means, but looking to have more fitness in my life - New to running but I do jog from to time, and enjoy hiking and strength training - Loves to eat and try new places - Ingliserang introvert na madaldal din haha - Hobbies: consuming k-pop content (💎💜) food, and reading - Based in Cainta/Pasig
About you: - Preferably the same level as me in running para may karamay ako, but if you’re more athletic… just be patient with me please lol - Looking to do this somewhat regularly - Also loves food so we can eat in good places after hehe - Just be yourself and let’s have a good time 😊
Message me your asl and let me know why you’re interested. :) See you soon! 🏃‍♀️🏃💨

I got it shortly after getting Covid on my birthday last year. Started a few weeks later with brain fog and pain under left rib and then extreme constipation leading to pain so bad I nearly passed out. Then anxiety and depression. Thought it was gluten intolerance but after cutting it out still had issues, now following a FODMAP diet eliminated the issues after getting a clearer list than the vague advice on the internet. Issues gone and now reintroducing foods but seem intolerant to quite a lot. Anyone else in my boat and anyone further along in terms of cure?

I live in an apartment building that is...oddly designed to say the least. My bedroom window directly faces the bedroom window of another apartment with about 6 feet between. Problem is, the windows have no sound proofing and my bedroom window buddies accross the way have LOUDEST sex I've ever heard. Like I can hear it through noise cancelling headphones type of loud (and those headphones completely drowned out fireworks being set off in the parking lot next door on 4th of July). I have insomnia and they have woken me up/interrupted that moment right before I fall asleep with these awful sounds. Like go for it but stop screaming the whole time and telling "daddy" how hes doing for all to hear.
They also keep a ridiculous amount of crap in the hallway. A stack of shoeboxes as tall as me and probably 10 shoeboxes long, dog food, food odor powder, about 20 more pairs of shoes not in boxes, cleaning stuff, a whole ass side table, and more. It's disrespectful and they are shitty people (they do more inconsiderate things than what I am sharing).
Because of the insomnia and the fact I'm moving out soon, I've decided to be a bit mischievous. I made sure there were no doorbell cams and the building doesn't have cameras and now a few times a week when I can't sleep I walk down the hall in the middle of the night and move some things around and kind of hide at least one thing. All very subtle. I hope it makes them question their sanity when things arent where they left them. If I see foot odor powder on the windowsill again I'm chucking that shit out the window without hesitation.

Hello! I’m a ftm to a 6.5mo baby girl. I started giving her solids (purees) at 6mo. Started with avocado + bm blended, then squash and bm blended. I have oversupply so she seems always so full, and her reflux is very bad since birth, so she kept spitting up those curdled milk ever since we started solids. I feel like her digestion kinda became worse since its just giving her too much in her tiny tummy? My family doctor said that we can just start giving her palm size amount, and start with cereal to help her digestion so now we’re at oatmeal, giving her pretty liquidy. I started giving her before her second feed, then finish with nursing to complete the meal - she still spits up afterwards and this makes me painful to watch 😭
I have some questions on this “solids” journey.

1. Does this reflux get better over time?? I just cant wait for that day to come.
2. I feel like she’s become constipated. She’s always straining but poop doesn’t come out like before or just a tiny bit. Is this normal? Does this also get better over time?
3. Really concerned about finger food. She has two bottom teeth and one upper tooth about to break through. Whenever I give her finger food, she bites and she doesn’t really chew, but swallows. I don’t know how big she bites so i’m very concerned on her swallowing the piece she bit and possibly choking on it? Yesterday, I gave her a watermelon, she bit and swallowed and start coughing so much like it was stuck in her throat. I am very afraid to try finger foods and after this experience, she had refused to take more of watermelon 🥲 Is this normal? How does finger foods work with teeth and possibly swallowing on a big piece and choking?

This journey has been so hard for me! Please help 😭

Ahoy there! It's been pretty lonely lately, so I figured I'd put myself out there and try to make some new friends. I'm of SouthEast Asian descent born and raised in Southern California. Definitely more of an indoor person, but I'm making an effort to go outside more and explore new places. Also a bit cringe so don't say I didn't warn ya!
I'm a huge fan of anime, science fiction, fantasy, documentaries, procedural crime shows, and series like Futurama, The Simpsons, Love Death Robots, and The Twilight Zone. I also enjoy playing a bunch of PC games, so hit me up if you want to game together! I'm open to trying anything that looks fun.
Currently trying to improve all areas of my life and trying out new hobbies, listening to new music, watching new things. Mostly trying to get outside my comfort zone and do things I normally wouldn't. Feel free to send a message if you're up for a friendly chat/voicechat. What do you enjoy doing in your free time? What movies, foods, games, or songs are you really into? I look forward to getting to know ya!

Ahoy there! It's been pretty lonely lately, so I figured I'd put myself out there and try to make some new friends. I'm of SouthEast Asian descent born and raised in Southern California. Definitely more of an indoor person, but I'm making an effort to go outside more and explore new places. Also a bit cringe so don't say I didn't warn ya!
I'm a huge fan of anime, science fiction, fantasy, documentaries, procedural crime shows, and series like Futurama, The Simpsons, Love Death Robots, and The Twilight Zone. I also enjoy playing a bunch of PC games, so hit me up if you want to game together! I'm open to trying anything that looks fun.
Currently trying to improve all areas of my life and trying out new hobbies, listening to new music, watching new things. Mostly trying to get outside my comfort zone and do things I normally wouldn't. Feel free to send a message if you're up for a friendly chat/voicechat. What do you enjoy doing in your free time? What movies, foods, games, or songs are you really into? I look forward to getting to know ya!

33f & 42m. 5 months as boyfriend / girlfriend and this week my family member had a terrible hospital accident and BF basically went MIA the whole week except for a few hours in-person Monday (7-11pm) and then quick replies to texts I mostly initiated of good morning and good evening the rest of the week. We live 200 miles from each other. I’m going to send this to him tomorrow 11AM
“I have been unhappy with how/where our relationship is - I have felt like your near lowest priority since Memorial Day weekend. Almost like you are intentionally de-prioritizing me, hoping that I will be the one to break up with you. A week you knew was beyond awful for me yet your (in)actions have evidenced basically zero meaningful support (you prioritized boys night Sun then your friends Tues-Thurs and then decorating appointments Fri- or am I wrong?). With your frequent Online Dating Site logins this week, it’s pretty obvious to me you don’t wholeheartedly want to continue our relationship, but for unknown reasons you are choosing to not articulate your changed sentiments out loud. Am I mistaken? If in fact you do care about me/us, I would prefer the blunt truth, and if you prefer to end this right now, I won’t resent you or be angry with you in any way. If I don’t hear from you by tomorrow morning , I’ll just consider the No-reply to be tacit assent and that’ll be that. Thanks.”
Note: we declared exclusivity long ago but never articulated about taking down our dating profiles and I saw on Fri this week he logged in Thurs AND Fri and then just now he also logged in Saturday
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Hi everyone,
I’ve been lurking in the subreddit since my dog was a couple months old and she started to show reactivity. I’ve been working with her with little success through her adolescence / fear periods. Her largest trigger is seeing dogs she wants to meet, where she will bark and lunge incessantly. She is also triggered by the doorbell, random noises outside the house, guests coming inside the home, people walking by on hikes and walks (dog or no dog). She will sometimes bark for 30+ minutes over a single trigger, and I currently have no solutions to calm her down.
The main issue I face with her is that she isn’t food motivated. She has been a bad eater since the first day we got her, and rarely finishes her food or has much of an appetite. She will refuse or ignore most treats, even high value ones like liver treats. There’s nothing medically wrong with her confirmed by her vets, just a very picky small breed dog. She is a toy poodle and basset hound mix, and the basset in her makes her obsessed with sniffing. I don’t know how I could leverage her love for sniffing to train her. When we go to the park, she will walk in a 10 foot radius and intensely sniff every bit of grass. When she’s sniffing, nothing on earth could bring her attention back to me. I’ve tried every possible high value treat (rotisserie chicken, stinky cat treats, cheese etc etc)
I’ve tried desensitization to noises by playing the noise and feeding a treat. It worked to some degree but she’ll ignore the treat when excited or anxious. She’s been in a basic obedience class at Petco where she was essentially completely distracted by the scents on the ground in the store and couldn’t focus on the basic commands. Even the trainer was bewildered and couldn’t give me much help aside from being patient and continuing to work with her at home.
Based on the context given, it is possible for me to train reactivity out of her? Most basic advice about rewarding with food I have tried with little to no success. Where can I go from here?

Satisfy my cravings
LF: Side fun and someone to eat
Loves giving pleasure to str8 curious men but open to other gay men out there.
Let’s give pleasure to each other. Labanan sa kama at kainin kita malala 🥵🥵🥵
Please be 23 and up and preferably near Manila, QC or willing to travel or share cost.
If you’re G, slide into my DMs and send me your ASL or something interesting about you.

Satisfy my cravings
LF: Side fun and someone to eat
Loves giving pleasure to str8 curious men but open to other gay men out there.
Let’s give pleasure to each other. Labanan sa kama at kainin kita malala 🥵🥵🥵
Please be 23 and up and preferably near Manila, QC or willing to travel or share cost.
If you’re G, slide into my DMs and send me your ASL or something interesting about you.

I (21M) known this girl (19F) for over 5 months from college and we really started to talk seriously last month.
It was kind of unexpecting because she really went off in the beginning by saying things that I found sensitive (in a good way). I was told that I was perfect for her and how she barely knew me and I treat her better than the guys she’s been with along with calling me “love”, “babe” and so forth. Mind you this is the 2nd week of actually getting to talk to each other.
We finally decide to hang out and we talked endlessly. We both find it interesting on how we were so alike and have the same interests. During that time, we both expressed how much we liked each-other and wanted something serious in the future. She admitted to liking me since the beginning of the semester.
The bad side is that she expressed how she’s going through serious shit. One of them is being in an accident; totalling her car. Then she mentioned something about a restraining order on some guy. Though there are things I strongly believe she isn’t telling…
Couple days go by and she leaves my messages on delivered and deletes me off Snapchat. I texted her a week later and asked what was up and she finally responded but with a weak excuse saying that everything was going downhill in her life.
I would see her on campus everyday and we seemed like complete strangers. I decided to forget it and move on and not talk to her but then she finds me a couple days later and nearly breaks down asking for a hug; apologizing.
I get invited to go to some club with her and we’re dancing, kissing, drinking and all that. When it was over, we found a chill spot to talk about what was going on and as I mentioned, she states she’s going through something but won’t tell me what. I asked if I was moving too fast and if I needed to back off, she says no.
We called it a night, hugged and I told her to text me. It’s been 3 days, no text. Basically, I’m confused with what just happened over the past month. I don’t know how you go from loving someone deeply to straight up ghost mode with rollercoaster feelings.
Should I reach out or just call it quits?

This story took place in 2016 when myself, my mother, my aunt and my younger cousin were on holiday for one week in Spain. I was 16 at the time and we decided to take a girls holiday during the summer break from school around August time.
We were staying at a nice little hotel and one evening we decided to go out and see what restaurants were close by for dinner. We walked for around ten minutes until we came across a little Indian restaurant and decided we would have a curry. There were other people in the restaurant and the owner seemed very friendly. He took our order and asked us where we were from and how long we were in Spain for, the usual sort of talk you expect from a local business owner interacting with tourists in a resort area. We told him we were from England and staying for one week. We enjoyed our meal and paid for our food, leaving him a tip as you do.
Over the next week, we visited the restaurant once more seeing the man again. He was just as friendly the second time around, talking with us briefly before he asked which hotel we were staying at, however we did not tell him the name of the hotel for safety reasons. Anyway, we had our dinner again and paid before bidding him goodbye.
Here’s where it gets creepy…
We arrived home to England and around a week or two later, my mum gets a message request from a strange account on Facebook messenger. She opens the message request and to our shock it is a message from this restaurant owner that reads something along the lines of
‘hello friend, do you remember me? We miss you here in Spain’
Myself and my mother were extremely creeped out by this considering we had never once told this guy our names, where we were staying or what part of England we lived in. My mum instantly blocked his account and we didn’t hear anything from him again.
When I think back to this encounter it still gives me chills. What did this man want? How did he find my mum on Facebook? How did he know her name when we never even told him? My mum has an unusual name that you never hear much of at all, especially in England so the fact he found her made it even more frightening. There’s no way he would have heard us calling her by her name whilst we ate our meals as my aunt and cousin never address my mum by her actual name and only ever use a nickname that has no correlation to her birth name or her name on her Facebook account.
Still freaks me out to this day…

I(26) and my husband(27) found out we were pregnant with our rainbow baby 2 weeks after we had our chemical pregnancy.
I’m currently now 7 weeks pregnant with my rainbow baby and honestly becoming a mother is all I have ever wanted. Even when I was a little girl myself I’d walk around with my baby dolls pretending to be a mother. When I had my chemical pregnancy 2 months ago my husband and I were devastated and then surprised at how quickly we conceived again. It’s truly been a rollercoaster of emotions but mostly good.. until recently.
We got great news that at 5 weeks my hcg was 3333! So that was a huge relief to my husband and I that baby is doing great! Of course though as my symptoms got stronger my mood got lower.
Now I’m 7 weeks pregnant and I feel so guilty typing this but I am miserable. The moment I wake up in the morning I immediately feel so hungry that my stomach hurts and so nauseous I’ll vomit if I stand but I have to stand because my bladder is so full I’ll pee if don’t get up asap! As soon as I eat anything no matter how small I vomit. No matter what fluid I’m drinking I vomit. This continues all day, the past 2 days I have barely kept any food or water down. My stomach hurts in so many places and I also suffer from Crohn’s Disease which thankfully I’m in remission at the moment but the bathroom problems have been relentless that I could write a paragraph on them alone. I’m exhausted I just want to sleep all day but I can’t because the moment I’m laying down I have to vomit. There’s so much anxiety and stress I feel from my previous miscarriage that it could happen again and ontop of everything I feel so alone.
I guess I was really naive that I knew pregnancy symptoms affects people differently but I always thought no matter what I’d be happy because this is everything I’ve ever wanted but I just don’t feel that way. I just feel awful. I keep beating myself telling myself there’s so many woman out there that would do anything to even be in the position I am and to be pregnant! It makes me feel so guilty, ontop of this I moved from my home country to the US to be with my husband so I don’t have my own family personally to lean on just my husbands family and don’t get me wrong they are fantastic! However I tried to express to my MIL what was going on and I just felt like I was being looked at like I’m crazy. She spoke about how her symptoms wore off in a a few weeks and it wasn’t that big of a deal.
I could really use some reassuring words and some stories to know I’m not alone in feeling like this.
Thank you.